I really intend to be a better person. A person who has value, a person who people would cherish. Understand love is a token in God's hand, I cherish it a lot a lot, and I think when I am good enough, I would have it... whether it would be from you, maybe after long time, no longer important, I got a call from someone I cherished a lot before from oversea, that is the feeling that is important.

People know about my feeling, if I like someone, if I miss someone... they also understand I care about others, but not sure if they know how I can be a better person. Tell me, if you know... I cannot see through myself.

Pray, is a very good first step. Sleep well and help others...

As you know, my busy days, my dark days hopefully will finish soon. I have lost many things... I disappeared some months ago, since I buried myself at work. Since I knew world would be the same happy without me... I said, I care, until a day that I am not important in your life. I meant it. I think you know by now, not too late I hope.

Friends I have, I got many SMS, ICQ, Email greetings, I spent my time with family and thinking about a better Eric. Hmm... I would be choosy still, and I would become better. I hope it works out.

My christmas finished a week ago, and my birthday is a start of a new day, I feel fresh, and I feel I am different now.

Thanks, a word is a word is a word... on the day I run out of gas, just a word, everything would be lightened up.