God is shelter, for those who believe God will give. Yes, it is in condition. This year, my Dad is getting baptized. It took him 2 years for lesson before he could finally join the Holy Communion. There were few people in his biblical class; not all of them pass to be catholic at this time.
Choice, as you think. It is you to select and not to select to be catholic. However, after some of us think we have committed so much and how much we are appreciating the bible stories. It turned out to be not so easy to be Catholic. Yes, God selects us as well. There are many reasons. The complicated procedures, the stubborn policy, the tedious liturgy… all could be seen as intervention of us to reach God for those who failed. But is that true?
People blame God for not rewarding for being good, and people even abandon God for not giving what they pray for. I used to ask if the sin of a murderer worse than those not believe in God… Well, by now, the answer seems obvious. God always help people who have faith, and faithless is always the reason for us parting from God.
There is one very good piece of Bible about “what does God needs you to do for him?” From Job (Jacob) 22:2 onwards
“Can a man be profitable to God?
Surely he who is wise is profitable to himself.
Is it any pleasure to the Almighty if you are in the right,
or is it gain to him if you make your ways blameless?...
As God is creator, nothing creator relies on creatures indeed. You have attended your lesson and being nice, you have not done any good to God but to yourself.
Job was someone did every thing in God’s will, but being tested by Satan by taken away his nearly everything. He blamed God for not helping him but still let those wicked safe. Of course from behind, (Job 22:21-30) it explains to becoming faithful, one will not have injustice anymore, no more anger and no more fear. God will listen to you, and you will have what you want, since only righteous can be with you.
Yes, when you are in doubt, dismay, lost and helpless. If you have faith and know the path is laid by God, you will walk as lightly as in the air. However, if you turn to God for your own wish, the door of heaven would take you are long journey to reach.
Of course, for the small ones, you are already baptized. You are already inside the library which wisdom and truth surround you. Hope you can build your faith for which will give you strength and solutions for the hurdles you face in the future. Others, happy Easter holiday :)